I've been home now for 2 or so weeks. Its been super hard for me to be here. I love my family but I feel like there is a huge part of me missing. This last week in being home I can't get this song out of my head. Its the only line in the song I can remember and I just keep saying it over and over... Jesus Lover of my soul... and tonight as I looked it up on youtube and am listening to the song... Its a simple song- only 2 parts repeated.
Jesus, Lover of my soul,
Jesus, I will never let you go
Youve taken me from the miry clay
You've set my feet upon the Rock, and now i know
I love you, I need you,
Though my world may fall, Ill never let you go
My Saviour, my closest friend,
I will worship you until the very end
I keep trying to figure out why I can't get this song out of my head. As I look at the lyrics I am realizing that I am not doing this. I took this huge faith walk in leaving Lost Canyon and deciding to go to CCM. It didn't work out in the timing I thought. So what- it doesn't mean that its not where god wants me. My leap of faith led me home for now and just because I didn't make it to CCM doesn't mean that my faith can stop or lessen. I need to keep seeking him out every day on everything and know that he's taken me here for a reason. And "though my world may fall, I'll never let you go". This may seem like its happening but really when I break it down and look at it I know that I know- God's got me and he'll never let me go. If he brings me to it he'll bring me through it. Just some thoughts. I won't lie. My time at home has been stretching and really hard but I know everything happens for a reason. God brought me here for a reason-now I just have to seek it out.
